A Few Random Thoughts…
These past few days, my mind has been juggled with a few random thoughts – from wanting to go to Australia to traveling and being with my girlfriend… to some different things.
Sometimes I don’t even know anymore what I want in life, except for the fact that I wanted to stay permanently in Adelaide Australia and be with my girlfriend of 2 years there.. I just really wanted to be with her already….. just for the sake of not having to worry about being separated from her anymore or being worlds away from each other. A lot of what if’s and anxious thoughts kept entering my mind while I’m away from her… “What if something happens?” , “What if I don’t make it there to her anymore..?” and those thoughts alone scare me enough to even rush things up even more. I don’t want to be worlds away anymore from her as the thought of separation gets me even more anxious and agitated.
I hate it here already in my home country.. it’s not that I’m being ungrateful .. I just don’t see a better future if I stay here in the Philippines for long. .. I see a better future elsewhere and definitely it’s not within this country or in a provincial life that my parents forcing and insisting on me. I see it somewhere and definitely that’s in Australia – where my girlfriend is..
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