A Letter To My Laura

Laura my baby,

I know we’ve both been hurting each other a lot and fighting because of IG or other things…. but can we please give this another chance? You know I’m trying my hardest here to keep my promise to really change for the better as I want to make our relationship work and last longer – I want this to be a healthy relationship and not always have to end up fighting with each other.

To tell you the truth, I don’t want to love another one anymore – I only want you this time and I want to get married to you. Maybe if we’ve been together personally now, I wouldn’t have to feel the need to yell at you anymore and help you with the chores so that you no longer would have to do them all by yourself.

All I just need now while we’re still worlds away from each other is for you to be back to spending more time with me the same way I want to spend more time with you. I miss your company a lot….. I really do. I’m sorry if I have always been too angry and upset , it’s just that I really feel too sad knowing that I’m missing a lot of time with you lately ever since you moved out of your parents place. I need your full time and attention….

It’s not that I don’t trust you at all that you’d be coming back for me – I’ve just had too much worrying and anxiety attacks and you know that triggers me to yell a lot. I wanted to avoid yelling at you so much and be back to being in love with you – not like this where we always fight a lot. If I may be honest, I got hurt when I saw you changed your relationship status back to being single and worried that you might want to break up with me already and find someone else. I’m hurt because I love you and I don’t want to ever lose you again the second time.

Believe me, I really want to make our relationship work well and last longer and be married to you that’s why I’m trying the hardest I could here to change for the better…. I just can’t bear losing you again.. Losing you… is already like losing my own life